Since it’s important to bring mental health into the spotlight for reasons we should all be aware of; I am going to talk about something that I’ve struggled with in the past two years – moving away from home for uni (from Bahrain to Newcastle). Now bear in mind, it was my own firm decision that forced my parents to let me come to the U.K. (I was obsessed with One Direction when I was 15 and couldn’t get over the thought of living in England). It wasn’t easy to convince them but I managed to do it and made it to the land of my dreams.
However, upon arrival I didn’t realise that a truckload of responsibilities would knock me out. Being a very pampered child living at home, with my parents doing things for me at my beck and call, I never thought about the fact that I would need to to feed, clean and clothe myself like an actual adult. Add that to another list of things that stressed me out – the curriculum difference at British Universities from CBSE. I was struggling with the most basic things, in lectures with making notes and studying for exams. I also felt financially responsible for choosing such an expensive option that drained my parents pockets and tried to finance my own living expenses which in turn drained me. And, the most important one, I was having difficulty making friends. Studying in the same school basically all my life; I never had to work hard to create friendships that were wholesome; we grew up with each other and that naturally made us bond with no expectations in return.
All of that changed when I broke out of the bubble I was living in back home causing me to spiral into the viscous train of thought – feeling unworthy, unloved and unproductive. The last two years have been the most difficult of my very short 20 years of life. But Newcastle has shaped me into the person that I am today. And it was those changes that were hard for me to deal with, more than anything else. However, I am coming to terms with those changes now that I’m in my final year and I realise I could not have made a better decision. I’m not saying I feed, clean and clothe myself like an actual adult – but I’m trying. I’m trying my best and that’s all that matters. I’m trying my best with my degree, with jobs, and with people. I am in a space that’s not mentally exhausting anymore and I could not be more grateful. This is just a reminder that you can &you will make it too.
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